Update - 2004
Ive been called everything but a white person by Pam & her husband Rob. Rob who I know has been involved since 1997 when the boys were abandoned. He told me on the phone once "I bet your God never told you about the sports car & all the jewlery Pam has. Well no God did not show me that. God did allow me to hear the laughter in the background of our conversation though. (See above vision) She thought it funny as he called me names, threatened. He was also lying saying to her I was defending myself. I was in no way defending myself, Nope just telling the truth on top of lies. ..:) He was feeding her what she had a hunger for, my guilt & her innocence.
The older boy Gary age 21, started seeing her I think in 2003. Eddie has been seeing her off & on since age 15 (2001). He lived with me. They both have told me they know she's lying, which I know they do. They were 12 & 14 when I had to go to LA to pick them up. They were the ones that called me when they could not find her. They were the ones that told the awful story of what they went thru. I will forever know I tried my best to do the right things (Not always correct). What I had to offer these 3 boys was not perfect, but it was better than living on the streets abandoned by thier Mom. Eddie & Gary are no longer little boys in the streets of Anahiem. Or being abused! I saw Eddie with the help of my daughter Melissa Susan all the way to the National Guard. He now has 2 kids Anzlee & Serenity. Gary has 2 kids Hannah & Hailey & one on the way.
They will all, always be in my prayers!
I am going to share a part of a vision given to me. One of my nieces had abandoned her three kids. I was battling if I could keep them or not. The three that had been abandoned I knew I could not raise but my heart was breaking in what to do. I had three kids I had been raising since birth. (from another niece) I loved them all so much. The 3 from the second niece were so worldly unlike the three I had raised. I was concerned for the safety of my three kids. Things did happen which will one day be on this site, once I figure out how to tell it without hurting innocense.
I was in a vision God took the three kids (that had been abandoned) and put them away from me. They seemed to fade down a long hall except for one (I tried to keep in view, Eddie). The three I had raised since birth God put behind me and said "these I ordained you for." The word ordained I did not know the exact meaning of I had to look it up later. All these kids are related to me. I cried out for one I said "Lord not Eddie He looks like Susan (My sister who died 1968 all six of these kids are my sisters Grandkids. By different nieces though) He allowed me to embrace the child, I held him tight & he held me tight not letting go. Then he (Eddie) faded in and out. Showing me I would always be a part of his life & he mine. There were other things about Eddie God showed me if ever I am to share I will. To read the vision of the ones I raised. See -> (A Boy A Boy And A Girl)
He took me to a place I did not know, there was my niece and a man. We were by a train track. (which had symbolism) My niece was laughing at the evil (God allowed me to hear her voice laughing) out of control. The man was avoiding contact with me. The Lord said "I want you to see the epitomy of evil. I was frightened I said "Lord I'm scared" he gave me a look of contentment. "I instinctively knew by his look I would be alright". Jesus wanted me to look into the eyes of the man. At first I was avoiding doing as the Lord instructed because of fear..but he repeated "Look into his eyes I am here" I knew I was safe with Jesus So I did, what the Lord had asked. What I saw was awful it affected me deeply to my core. The man was completely empty. His inner soul was void..It is hard to describe. I cried out very loud, Lord "I see nothing this man is "EMPTY" I had tears in my eyes. I could not comprehend the depth of the evil. I shook very hard! Christ looked at me as soon as our eyes met I felt strength & peace. He said "THIS IS THE EPITOME OF EVIL" He revealed to me we all have a depth of either good or evil. It is by our decisions we allow darkness or light. At the end of this vision Jesus showed me an older lady sitting at a kitchen table (the description of the table, the lady, her mannerisms, were also shown to me). My niece & this man had done something very terrible to or will in the future to this lady. Hurt her in some way! In a very bad way. I pray for my neice but I have to keep my distance, she lives in lies. She is in her own definition of what she & the world think is right. There are other things in this part of the vision I will not share. Unless of course if Jesus tells me too.
Jesus helped me to discern evil. To open my spirit to the eyes & souls of people. Now I see people and the depth of their evil. I believe this has been for my edification & safety. I also see the light within people. I see in measures the depth of emptiness ("Evil"). It is not black and white..there are those who have allowed their selves to be taken over by evil. They have no conscience they are void! Others block God at times with there decisions of greed, hate, murderous spirits, all things that bring darkness.
By the way! Epitome is not a word I would have used at the time I had this vision. I even called a friend to ask what it meant. She did not know exactly so we looked it up. Jesus does that alot!
If I don't know a meaning I look it up. I also believe Jesus uses words that could not be my own.
Definition; What is Epitome? By definition, Epitome is either
"the embodiment", or "a person or thing that typifies an entire class."
I know this for sure" Evil Is Very Void & Dark.
(Complete emptiness of God, Light & Love)
